Lately I have found myself thinking a lot about the game hide and go seek. I still remember a few really good hiding places that my family would use, and there is one particular game that has been sticking out in my mind. I was "it," I had found my sisters, and then the three of us starting looking for our Mom. At the time it felt like a really long time, and so finally we gave up. It must have been a respectable amount of time because she did come out after a few pleas. When she came to us we asked her where she had been hiding, but she would not tell. It was clearly a really good spot, and she wanted to be able to use it again. You know to this day, I still have no idea where she was hiding. Our house was not huge, and when there were three teenage girls living in the house it felt REALLY small! So where in the world could she have been?
I don't know that in our games we ever called, "olly olly oxen free;" but lately I have been trying to use that concept with God as I am having trouble seeing his/her plan in all that is swirling around me. I have too much faith to think that I have been forsaken, I just think s/he is doing a really good job of hiding right now. Just like I knew my Mom had not really vanished, I know God is still there somewhere. Sometimes I find myself wondering why things cannot be a little more clear, just a little bit easier.
I cannot provide specifics, but let's just say that things around me are feeling like that notion that at times the "truth is stranger than fiction." In my nearly (two days shy) 32 years on this earth, God has always led me to the place where I was supposed to be and helped through me some pretty ridiculous stuff. So I do trust that everything will work out in God's time, not mine.
So until it becomes more clear, I am going to keep playing the game knowing that one day God will appear as my Mom did during that rather intense game of hide and go seek.
Until then, if you hear me saying "olly, olly oxen free," please know I am just trying to understand what the greater plan is for my current craziness.
